what to do...

So I finally hit one of my goals.  I'm at UH.  I promised myself not to get into any tangled relationships while I was here.  Barely two months in and that got fucked up already.

A ghost from the past has surfaced and wants to be a part of my life again.  I hold no feelings for this person, so its not great but its not bad.  Persistent and stubborn as ever she won't leave me alone so I gave up and said that if she wants to be a part of my life she'll need to take me as I am, busier then when we dated the last time.

Same answer "I understand"

This time around she seems to be holding her word.  Still I find it irritating getting random texts at midnight or later asking why I haven't texted in two days.  I simply do not have the time or energy to do things like this all the time.  

On the other hand, I'm still not over a certain someone in California currently.  Man my life is fucked up.  Why does part of me still think I can convince her back to my team? I told myself her happiness should be your happiness if you really care about her and all I can think about is her and I having art classes maybe over the summer and definitely in the Fall semester.

Love is the last thing I want right now, so of course, its in the forefront of all my thoughts 90% of the time.

Art classes are going well.  About to have the semesters first art history test. I'm really nervous about it because I have no idea what to study.  There's so much, the artist's name, particular piece we covered in class, where they originated from, the time it was worked on, the medium that was used, its size. Dammit. I can't believe that they make all art majors take two classes of this bullshit.  But I guess later if I ever work in a museum it would come in handy. (Fuck let's just skip to the Asian art, at least I find that stuff visually interesting!)

Work is fucking crazy.  The prepping for renovation and the insane amount of boxes coming in.  WHY CORPORATE?!? We're moving next to Jeans Warehouse for the first 3 weeks of April and then in the last week its our 'Grand Reopening'.  After we get everything down to our temporary location it will be time to move it all back up! Rahhhhhhh!  Not to mention the boss boss has been riding on everyone for every little thing (we know our job, let us do it)

Why can't study abroad just be a class option when you register for classes? I'd be in Japan or Europe right now studying painting or drawing in a strange new environment forced to learn the language as I go.  It'd be a hell of a lot better than the current life I'm living.

Imaginary Celeb Playlist

An idea I picked up from Gail.

1. Dragonstea Din Tei - O-Zone

How can you not love this song? Seriously after the Numa Numa guy exploded all over the place and then turned into a hermit to avoid fans this song went international!! You can't help but feel like dancing whenever the beat starts up!

2. Rivers of Babylon - Sublime

Mellow out and chill dude.  I love Sublime. Honest to God.  They're super catching and upbeat but there's something about this acoustic track that makes me like them even more.  Maybe its knowing that they can do the fast and dirty but also the mellow and meaningful

3. Should I Stay or Should I Go - The Clash

The all time question of my life! I usually choose to stay and in the end I usually get burned. "If I go there will be trouble and if I stay it will be double"

4. Thunderhorse - Dethklok

You knew this was coming.

5.  I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance

Sometimes you've got to let go.  This reminds me that we have to make choices in life and sometimes they make paths cross and other times uncross.  The only thing we can do is keep moving forward. Love hurts no matter who you are. Yesterday was a different day.

6. Paper and Ink - National Product

Local boys hit it big! Not to mention the songs they create are amazing. Makes me feel like an emo kid where all the songs are speaking about me! (without actually being emo or cutting myself...LOL) Hearing this live at their last show was great! The crowd singing every word with Danny was awesome. Can't wait for the next Hawaii show guys!

7. Fuck Her Gently - Tenacious D

Oh come on! So Awesome your junk just exploded!

8. In the Garage - Weezer

Nerdy lifestyle in a garage? If I had a garage this song would be describing life in high school.  Weezer, nerdy music by nerdy guys.

9. Pink Triangle - Weezer

Why do I keep falling for women who turn out to be gay? Seriously...it fucking sucks.

10. Kodo - Yoshida Brothers

Better known as the music for the Wii commercials.  These guys are amazing. They are what Jimmy Hendrix was for the guitar. The shamisena and biwa will never be played the same way again after these guys (though I do like traditional shamisen and biwa music too!)

11. Skid Row - Little Shop of Horrors

Never has so much talent been in a single song about living in the slums while a plant from outer space devours dentists and tries to take over the world.

12. Hopelessly Devoted to You - Olivia Newton John (Grease)

The song you played after your first break up.  Maybe not...probably cried your eyes out first and then played it. 

13. La Vie Boheme - RENT

Oh...my...God. Though the movie was about not paying rent, getting evicted, drug use, and AIDs everyone in New York can effing sing! This is the kind of song you wish you could just break into randomly when you went through that phase where you wished life was a musical.

14. Wig in a Box - Hedwig and the Angry Inch

Putting on a mask to shield yourself from the world. Where the stuff you thought you'd never do you're now doing.  Yeah, this has to be heard. 

15. Schadenfreude - Avenue Q

German for "the happiness at the misfortune of others".

That's it for now kids! Class about to start, check back! I might add more to this later!