Frustrated

Sometimes I want to scream at the top of my lungs.

So in 'Juno' , Juno hates the term "sexually active" as if she were to some day deactivate.  I think I've reached that point.  3 years? Shit, I'm not even on stand-by mode.  The person I am feels that sex should be saved for someone you have a bond with, but lately I'm finding myself wavering from that.  I feel bad, as if I've been lying to myself this entire time.  That's not the person I am.  I know I'm reading into this too much, but you can't help what you feel right?

GOD!

Just one? Seriously.

How Good Can It Get?

Most know that UW sent me a denial to the school.  It was before I was given the chance to show them my portfolio.  So, its not that the art dept. denied me it was the admissions to the school itself.  Its quite a blow considering that its the second time that I've been denied to a 4 year college on the mainland.  

With a blow to my ego close friends tell me that they're glad I'm not going.  Where's the love and support?  I wanted to go, the least they could have done is support me.  I feel as if their wish came true and not mine.  I know its not true but it sure feels that way.

Clarissa brought up a good point.  On Myspace I asked "Should I stay and try to make life better here since I'm stuck or should I cut and run?"  Life could be better but I haven't tried to make it better.  How good could it get?  Not sure.