so right could it really be wrong?

"Some temptations come to the industrious, but all temptations attack the idle" - Charles H. Spurgeon

the human touch can be a wonderful but wicked weapon. the kiss can make a man of rules and structure do things he never would have thought of. he loses his will to fight, his composure, his ethics. he would kill, lose respect, friends, and family if he was driven to the point.

on sunday i came at this crossroads. i did not fight back this person. physically starved and being given the chance, i reacted before thinking. i don't know what i got myself into, but can something that feels so good and right be wrong?

...if you knew the background story you might think it is. i don't know what to do..but move forward

uuuuugh

i always get sick around spring break.

it never fails.  anyway this has been the worst week to date. bleh. art projects are given over spring break and i missed one too many art history classes. i have to call upon the one friend i have in the that class to help catch me up. fricken insane. i can't believe i'll be doing this  for another 2 years for my BFA and 2 more for my MFA. i just wanna do art and not care about requirements. 

idk about NSO.  i want to do it, but all the work involved seems pretty lame.  but the friends i'd make is another plus (since i really don't have too many, just Milena)  anyway i'll turn in the application and see. who knows. lol

i have to replan the summer.  the art history class i was going to take isnt offered, so i'll be taking intro to 3d over the summer (with the NSO class if i get it).  if not i have to replan even more. uuuugh. was college supposed to be this hard? or do i just make it that way? i'm enjoying the art classes (of course its my major!) but everything else is just....boring?

anyway, time to finish that project, scan, and send it to my teacher. 

Random Rant in the month of March

School's starting to add up. Every week is another set of supplies. O_O At least we're hitting the midway point.  Spring break is coming up! Whooo!  Don't know what I'm doing.  Probably just gonna work.  

Don't know if I'm going to be at Hot Topic much longer.  I love the people there, but the stress and BS that goes on isn't really worth it anymore.  Though...the discount sure is!!  I'm about to go to the Ka Leo O Hawaii office to inquire about this help wanted ad in photography.  I think its like working for Lifetouch Sports candids, but I'll get to stay on campus (and hopefully get a press pass into the games!!!)  

*Random note: There were 3 Sacred Heart girls that just came up from the bookstore "OMG"-ing all over the place...wtf?

Anyway, Japan is in the cards for 2010 and 2011.  So this summer its Art175, to get rid of that pesky world art history class.  The other session will go to the New Student Organization.  They'll pay me to take a writing intensive class and to help run the new student orientation in Fall.  Huzzah!

Nothing else...oh wait.  So Sarah ended our relationship.  I wasn't even aware that we had one going on...? Anyway still single!  I'm actually enjoying it.  No one to answer to or tell where I'm going and who I'll be with.  Its pretty nice.

Blood pressure is still high, but not as high as it was!  I also got all my cholesterol under control.  Rabbit food (veggies) really does the trick.  I could exercise more but its hard with my crazy ass schedule.  Anyway, its still high because I don't get enough sleep and sometimes skip meals.  But I lost around 17lbs. in 2months.  Haha, if I were in my wrestling days it would have been double that in the 2 months.  Oooh how I miss physical exercises!