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apply one's self to:

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school work

love

friends

applied to:

bestbuy

apple

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st. germaine's

petco

3d class is pretty awesome. i might take more sculpture classes. =D painting and sculpture.  combine the two and make crazy art. ashley and i are good. first real big argument.  got over it. i swear sometimes we fight like an old married couple in the grocery store. its for her place and i'm driving the cart and doing the math. ugh.

california left me filling mixed. dunno. need time to sort things through. she knows. she understands, but i know she doesn't want anything to change. 

In Cali.

Seen LA, the Chinese movie theater, El Capitan, virgin superstore, lots of adult shops, in n out, riverside, azuza, hookah bar

Glendale today and murrieta too. Maybe downtown Disney.

It's been a blast hanging out with Kelbi and Shermz and Joel

recent thoughts

so with the recent drop in requirements in the art dept. i've decided to stick with my original plan. get my B.A. and get out. i'm just over school. i've been in it for too long and want to get other parts of my life started. 2 japanese classes 3 writing intensive classes 4 art studio classes (all of which need to be 300 level or higher...but since i'm not there yet it'll probably be more) 2 upper level art history art 175 12 classes in all. 3 semesters. plus the summer sessions to be sure i'm on track. i want out of school and out of this retail job. (lifetouch you still want me? lol)

that point

its there.  i dont even care about school. art history is a joke and my 2d design teacher is a joke.  japanese seems impossible and the only class i really want to do good in has the most things due.  

i just want off this rock.  the 16 - 23 will save my sanity.

may 26 - july 2 summer session 1

july 6 - august 14 summer session 2

both while working a the store and studio

all i really want is for school to be done with. i know its the best years of my life, but can't i get out of them already? i grew up too fast to want to party and stay out late.  parts of me wish i could but its just not in me

Ever feel so strongly about someone that you can't function some days. Wondering how it got this bad so quickly, then realizing that it was going on before you two officially got together?

That's my girlfriend. She's my kryptonite and greatest source of inspiration. The future doesn't look so bad anymore

Life's pretty crazy. On the go all the time. Ashley and I are doing great. Mobile update :D whoo

if it means a lot to you

our song

the aftermath of a breakup that neither side wants.  why is this our song?

just a thought.

having a lot of those lately.  i can't let this affect school, but it already is.  had to be during the final week of instruction and finals.

moving too fast? probably.

so right could it really be wrong?

"Some temptations come to the industrious, but all temptations attack the idle" - Charles H. Spurgeon

the human touch can be a wonderful but wicked weapon. the kiss can make a man of rules and structure do things he never would have thought of. he loses his will to fight, his composure, his ethics. he would kill, lose respect, friends, and family if he was driven to the point.

on sunday i came at this crossroads. i did not fight back this person. physically starved and being given the chance, i reacted before thinking. i don't know what i got myself into, but can something that feels so good and right be wrong?

...if you knew the background story you might think it is. i don't know what to do..but move forward

uuuuugh

i always get sick around spring break.

it never fails.  anyway this has been the worst week to date. bleh. art projects are given over spring break and i missed one too many art history classes. i have to call upon the one friend i have in the that class to help catch me up. fricken insane. i can't believe i'll be doing this  for another 2 years for my BFA and 2 more for my MFA. i just wanna do art and not care about requirements. 

idk about NSO.  i want to do it, but all the work involved seems pretty lame.  but the friends i'd make is another plus (since i really don't have too many, just Milena)  anyway i'll turn in the application and see. who knows. lol

i have to replan the summer.  the art history class i was going to take isnt offered, so i'll be taking intro to 3d over the summer (with the NSO class if i get it).  if not i have to replan even more. uuuugh. was college supposed to be this hard? or do i just make it that way? i'm enjoying the art classes (of course its my major!) but everything else is just....boring?

anyway, time to finish that project, scan, and send it to my teacher. 

Random Rant in the month of March

School's starting to add up. Every week is another set of supplies. O_O At least we're hitting the midway point.  Spring break is coming up! Whooo!  Don't know what I'm doing.  Probably just gonna work.  

Don't know if I'm going to be at Hot Topic much longer.  I love the people there, but the stress and BS that goes on isn't really worth it anymore.  Though...the discount sure is!!  I'm about to go to the Ka Leo O Hawaii office to inquire about this help wanted ad in photography.  I think its like working for Lifetouch Sports candids, but I'll get to stay on campus (and hopefully get a press pass into the games!!!)  

*Random note: There were 3 Sacred Heart girls that just came up from the bookstore "OMG"-ing all over the place...wtf?

Anyway, Japan is in the cards for 2010 and 2011.  So this summer its Art175, to get rid of that pesky world art history class.  The other session will go to the New Student Organization.  They'll pay me to take a writing intensive class and to help run the new student orientation in Fall.  Huzzah!

Nothing else...oh wait.  So Sarah ended our relationship.  I wasn't even aware that we had one going on...? Anyway still single!  I'm actually enjoying it.  No one to answer to or tell where I'm going and who I'll be with.  Its pretty nice.

Blood pressure is still high, but not as high as it was!  I also got all my cholesterol under control.  Rabbit food (veggies) really does the trick.  I could exercise more but its hard with my crazy ass schedule.  Anyway, its still high because I don't get enough sleep and sometimes skip meals.  But I lost around 17lbs. in 2months.  Haha, if I were in my wrestling days it would have been double that in the 2 months.  Oooh how I miss physical exercises!

what to do...

So I finally hit one of my goals.  I'm at UH.  I promised myself not to get into any tangled relationships while I was here.  Barely two months in and that got fucked up already.

A ghost from the past has surfaced and wants to be a part of my life again.  I hold no feelings for this person, so its not great but its not bad.  Persistent and stubborn as ever she won't leave me alone so I gave up and said that if she wants to be a part of my life she'll need to take me as I am, busier then when we dated the last time.

Same answer "I understand"

This time around she seems to be holding her word.  Still I find it irritating getting random texts at midnight or later asking why I haven't texted in two days.  I simply do not have the time or energy to do things like this all the time.  

On the other hand, I'm still not over a certain someone in California currently.  Man my life is fucked up.  Why does part of me still think I can convince her back to my team? I told myself her happiness should be your happiness if you really care about her and all I can think about is her and I having art classes maybe over the summer and definitely in the Fall semester.

Love is the last thing I want right now, so of course, its in the forefront of all my thoughts 90% of the time.

Art classes are going well.  About to have the semesters first art history test. I'm really nervous about it because I have no idea what to study.  There's so much, the artist's name, particular piece we covered in class, where they originated from, the time it was worked on, the medium that was used, its size. Dammit. I can't believe that they make all art majors take two classes of this bullshit.  But I guess later if I ever work in a museum it would come in handy. (Fuck let's just skip to the Asian art, at least I find that stuff visually interesting!)

Work is fucking crazy.  The prepping for renovation and the insane amount of boxes coming in.  WHY CORPORATE?!? We're moving next to Jeans Warehouse for the first 3 weeks of April and then in the last week its our 'Grand Reopening'.  After we get everything down to our temporary location it will be time to move it all back up! Rahhhhhhh!  Not to mention the boss boss has been riding on everyone for every little thing (we know our job, let us do it)

Why can't study abroad just be a class option when you register for classes? I'd be in Japan or Europe right now studying painting or drawing in a strange new environment forced to learn the language as I go.  It'd be a hell of a lot better than the current life I'm living.

Imaginary Celeb Playlist

An idea I picked up from Gail.

1. Dragonstea Din Tei - O-Zone

How can you not love this song? Seriously after the Numa Numa guy exploded all over the place and then turned into a hermit to avoid fans this song went international!! You can't help but feel like dancing whenever the beat starts up!

2. Rivers of Babylon - Sublime

Mellow out and chill dude.  I love Sublime. Honest to God.  They're super catching and upbeat but there's something about this acoustic track that makes me like them even more.  Maybe its knowing that they can do the fast and dirty but also the mellow and meaningful

3. Should I Stay or Should I Go - The Clash

The all time question of my life! I usually choose to stay and in the end I usually get burned. "If I go there will be trouble and if I stay it will be double"

4. Thunderhorse - Dethklok

You knew this was coming.

5.  I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance

Sometimes you've got to let go.  This reminds me that we have to make choices in life and sometimes they make paths cross and other times uncross.  The only thing we can do is keep moving forward. Love hurts no matter who you are. Yesterday was a different day.

6. Paper and Ink - National Product

Local boys hit it big! Not to mention the songs they create are amazing. Makes me feel like an emo kid where all the songs are speaking about me! (without actually being emo or cutting myself...LOL) Hearing this live at their last show was great! The crowd singing every word with Danny was awesome. Can't wait for the next Hawaii show guys!

7. Fuck Her Gently - Tenacious D

Oh come on! So Awesome your junk just exploded!

8. In the Garage - Weezer

Nerdy lifestyle in a garage? If I had a garage this song would be describing life in high school.  Weezer, nerdy music by nerdy guys.

9. Pink Triangle - Weezer

Why do I keep falling for women who turn out to be gay? Seriously...it fucking sucks.

10. Kodo - Yoshida Brothers

Better known as the music for the Wii commercials.  These guys are amazing. They are what Jimmy Hendrix was for the guitar. The shamisena and biwa will never be played the same way again after these guys (though I do like traditional shamisen and biwa music too!)

11. Skid Row - Little Shop of Horrors

Never has so much talent been in a single song about living in the slums while a plant from outer space devours dentists and tries to take over the world.

12. Hopelessly Devoted to You - Olivia Newton John (Grease)

The song you played after your first break up.  Maybe not...probably cried your eyes out first and then played it. 

13. La Vie Boheme - RENT

Oh...my...God. Though the movie was about not paying rent, getting evicted, drug use, and AIDs everyone in New York can effing sing! This is the kind of song you wish you could just break into randomly when you went through that phase where you wished life was a musical.

14. Wig in a Box - Hedwig and the Angry Inch

Putting on a mask to shield yourself from the world. Where the stuff you thought you'd never do you're now doing.  Yeah, this has to be heard. 

15. Schadenfreude - Avenue Q

German for "the happiness at the misfortune of others".

That's it for now kids! Class about to start, check back! I might add more to this later!

its decided...no wait....maybe...yes..nooo....sorta

ooo planning with the counselor i have a lot of options. So i decided to save up for japan and go next summer 2010. that way i can go with milena and relax a little bit. then go back in 2011 for the 202 course. two japan trips. its not that bad because i wont have to take an extra loan out NOW. i can lump it together with next years student loan and go go go! plus any scholarships i get in between can go to pay off the loan or whatever. money is money and after college i'll need all the i can get, because...i'm debating if i want the BFA or not.

いんほんへいきましょ

at the start of japanese class, sensei had a guest speaker from the international study abroad program stop by to talk to us. i've never thought of studying abroad (so that's a lie, japan has always been on my list), but i guess in 2 weeks UH has made me bold enough to want to go somewhere where i barely know the language to live there for 6 weeks to get 4 credits. the problem lies in the fact that it's expensive. $5000 at most. considering its for the program, credits, and roundtrip flight its not that bad when broken down. in fact it could/should be a lot more. unfortunately the student loan i took out only covers spring, regular summer sessions, and fall. therefore i would need to find a way to get the $5000 on my own. now, i could save up for it. $300 a paycheck i would need 16 of them. not possible. especially when i need to put a $500 deposit by the end of march. *sigh* so i'm applying for scholarships...the nightmare returns once again.

2 Weeks In

So here I am. UH Manoa. To be honest I never thought I'd make it here. Its a big campus full of diverse people and the best part is that everyone here wants to learn. Its not like the CC where you go to relive high school. Not that there's anything wrong with that; I came from that. But being here makes me feel like I'm really in college. Classes are okay. Due to the non existent wind storm I'm behind in two classes (but we're trying to catch up). Other than that its early mornings and late nights.

Work is up in the air. I was told the store was closing in March for a month long renovation but its really next month! A month with no work is gonna be hard. I want to find another job but I like working at the store...wait...I like working with the people at the store. But even that is dwindling. Craig's leaving for Windward Mall and Ala Moana will go to hell in a hand basket. At least I still got Amy, Daniel, and Steve.

I'm not sure if I want to stay at the store or studio. I feel that I have something more to offer somewhere else. Although I don't know what I'm thinking of or where it might be. Trapped in the work force at too young of an age that its gotten so old already? I guess the downside of working from your sophomore year in high school is that you'll turn into a cranky old person like me.

Well, class is gonna start in 15. Better head there and get a good seat. I'll be posting more. I promise. I'm even on Facebook almost everyday! This has never happened before but stay tuned!

-Shelds
www.twitter.com/sheldsyo

almost half a week and i'm exhausted

half a month​ on this diet.​ cutti​ng out every​thing​ was a littl​e easie​r than i thoug​ht (i give most of the credi​t to my insan​e sched​ule that doesn​'​t allow​ for much time to sit and stuff​ my face)​ i don'​t feel any healt​hier (​maybe​ becau​se i haven​'​t gone to the gym yet.​.​.​i need to get my i.d. valid​ated soooo​ooooo​n)​

the store​ close​s for about a month​ in the end of march (so until​ april​ 29 or so i'm outta​ work)​.​ yikes​.​ oh! clear​ance at ala moana​ is still​ 50% OFF the red price​ had to plug that in there​.​ come and buy stuff​ for super​ cheap​!​!​!​

mmm my art histo​ry teach​er put me to sleep​ with her monot​one and dimmi​ng of the light​s to show slide​s (on the first​ day? COME ON!)

my drawi​ng teach​er looks​ like a fusio​n of bret and jerma​ine from fligh​t of the conch​ords.​ haha.​

nihon​go sense​i talks​ waaaa​aaaay​ too fast.​ milen​a and i were freak​ing out. lol

today​ i'll find out what my intro​ to 2D teach​er is like.​ dormi​ng seems​ more and more like a bette​r optio​n!​ soooo​o expen​sive thoug​h and i don'​t want to burde​n my grand​ma by stayi​ng over!​ gah! commu​ting sucks​!​

that'​s my updat​e so far. i'll try to updat​e this early​ in the morni​ng befor​e class​es to keep every​one updat​ed!​

calm before the storm

so school starts this coming monday. I had today off and have tomorrow off as well.  opening sunday morning and then the real stuff begins.  Sunday is inventory.  Not too thrilled about that.  Never am.  Anyway, the store will close for a month for renovations.  We don't know when but it'll probably be around spring break.  Which is horrible timing since I was trying to save up to visit California for the first time.  There's a lot of talk that people will leave the company when that happens.  Not surprising since Craig is moving to Windward Mall.

School will be crazy.  UH for the first time.  I have to get to the parking structure by 6am.  Classes don't start till 9am.  So there's a long wait, but the gym opens at 6am as well.  I'll work out, shower, and then do some extra studying/art work before class.  After class I might have to work a 3pm to closing shift (10pm-ish).  The whole routine goes on throughout the week.  It'll be hard but I have to suck it up this semester.  Tuesdays and Thursdays are completely different.  Its the same start and work out time, but after my first class I have about 2 hours to go to LCC and prep for my Japanese class.  After that I might have the same work hours so I would drive all the way back to Ala Moana.  Hard life, yeah?

It'll get easier as I start covering requirements for my major.  According to the counselor I saw yesterday my graduation requirements put me at a second semester Junior.  I'm so close to leaving.... except I need major requirements. =P

Rah rah rah! I'm revved up! Let's do it!